wow. it has really been awhile, and i am finding it hard to recall what has gone down in the last few months.
mostly, i worry for the academic lacking.
mostly, i am glad for the new group of people i've found.
mostly, i am afraid of failing anything else, cause that pretty much means i am screwed.
mostly, i am thankful for financial stability.
mostly, i hope i don't disappoint.
is that a sufficient summary?
the holidays have just begun for me, and i as much as i'd like to meld right into the bed, and proceed with mindless dramas, one after another, i'd like to make the most of time.
came home from a crazy marathon of a drama i had seen just last year. and already, i cannot quite remember what happens. so was that all to just spend time, well knowing i'd forget the story again? well regardless, for now, its always a good investment.
people are finally coming to melbourne! its quite glum that after 4 years, no one has come to visit. but finally, things are changing.
i seriously think i need some holding back in all my purchasing. i hate to admit this, but i think i've been granted way to much spending power? no, too much spending flexibility. and as stupid as it sounds, i am starting to think of how i might even begin to support myself after i graduate.
i am sosososososo close to getting the iphone 4 just cause i already bought the casing and screen protectors and then they didn't have stock for so long, it feels almost stupid to have gone and bought the accessories first. but i must explain, it was because the plan was to use vouchers to get them, but its out of stock everywhere. this void has manifested to the urge of caving in and just buying in online, which upon checking, is also oos. wow.
so does anyone know anyone with an iphone 4 so i can get rid of my casings and NOT THINK ABOUT IT ANYMORE?! i rather get the 5 to be honest.
and seriously, the last two days without driving has made me feel like such a twat for having driven almost all of my holidays. i am not even rushing anywhere, so whats the point! YET i get sooooo lazy and i felt so sick when i rode on 48 to holland v and just melted into the seat for an hour each way.
after re-reading the entry i thought i lost, i am once more watching more teevee, turning my slitty eyes square. or rectangular these days. small slitty rectangular eyes. hm. ANYWAY.
i was watching another channel 8 program and today's episode was on harelips. or what i have known as clefts.
AND NOT TOO LONG AGO, although i failed the subject, i remember learning and being very thankful for not having been born with much issues physically.
my mom was 33 when she had me. i cannot stress upon how many things could have gone wrong. not because some conditions run in the family, but because i just took too damn long to come along!
downs syndrome is a scary thing. i know by 45 the chances are 1 in 25. i kid not. at my momma's age, my chances were 1/625. well. that is a high enough to scare me. and the stats for any faults causing your life to be effed is 1 in 192, bearing in mind that this does not include stuff that might be passed from your parents!
maybe its because i picked it as a major, but it sure as hell has started to haunt me even before i get a good splash around in all the information there is to drown in.
i'm now watching breakout, some channel 8 drama. and this uber smart girl who woke up from a 13 year long coma is in search of some answers to why her family was targeted and all killed.
so now her evil uncle and aunt have kept her staved in a room, and her way out is to sign all of her inheritance to them.
she bore 3 days of hunger and drank a lot from the sink.
so right now she was smart enough to know something like that might happen and told someone to come rescue her if she didn't call by a certain day and time.
so what would you do if you were her?
i put alot of thought into this! i don't know why.
SINCE SHE HAD A TOILET RIGHT. she should have flooded the place, which would have forced them to open the door.
i know i'm not alone in this, but i just wonder if anyone else imagines what they would do if shit happens.
here's a youtube channel i've been watching cause his black accent is the shizz yo.
exams have come and gone, and well. i failed one subject. can't say i saw it coming, but when the results page loaded, i couldn't decide how to feel.
if i did fail one of the other two core subjects, there is no way i can major in genetics anymore. so i suppose a good way to put it is if i had to fail one subject, i'd chose the same. not like there is such an option. just saying.
being back is exhilarating! even though i don't have much to do, it just seems so much more... full.
and awesome when i get texts to meet!
there's a chance i'll have to go back for summer. though it hardly feels like i need to up and go any time soon. the school has delayed their reply and i am secretly hoping that they reply me ridiculously late so that there isn't enough time to get flight tickets.
just in this short span, i started and ended my internship. i have been driving a rented car. i've eaten almost all the foods i haven't had for some time. and i have started talking more to people from church!
i can't decide if i want to go for summer or not. and not knowing if that choice is even an option is slowly creeping in-between my nerves.
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